At some point, you have to realize that making a NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION is pointless.
When the negative effects of the past or the present last longer than the feeling of th resolution, or momentary inspiration, then you are destined for failure in acquiring what you feel you rightfully deserve.
From personal experience, the bullshit associated with resolutions and attachments came from all directions and from many points in my life.
After many uncomfortable and self-destructive behaviors and experiences, the ONLY way I found to enact true CHANGE was to REJECT all of he bullshit that existed within myself. This bullshit that wasn’t me. This bullshit I had allowed others to dump upon me without question.
One day, I WOKE UP, but not without a great cost, or at least I thought was a great cost. The false crowd, the enabling friends, the toxic relationships and the bullshit were all GONE! Unfortunately, this also included people and events that had become an ingrained habit, or tradition. I was alone with myself and my truth. No influence from others. No bullshit.
Only me and a clean canvas, ready for creation.
If you are stuck, in the moment, in a toxic relationship, in finding peace…LOOK AROUND.
Look at your influences, both direct and indirect, and evaluate their collective results. How truly successful are their relationships, happiness levels and wellness capacity? Are you surrounded by people whom you aspire to be just like, or do the people in your life drain your energy and suck the life out of you in some way, creating conflict within yourself and making it easy for you to stay the same?
Look at the bullshit that comes with your influences. Collectively.
Do you genuinely believe within yourself these influences are greater than the TRUTH within your soul? Do you stay the same, in the same routine, doing the same rituals of partying or getting together only to feel like you are a PART OF, to be ACCEPTED or because it is an EXPECTATION by others to choose them and their fucked up version of unity, family and peers?
If you genuinely desire CHANGE, all change starts from within.
You will never succeed in becoming a better version of yourself or enacting change if you keep doing the same thing, hanging out with the same people and running off of the same collective energy pool; the pool that keeps you the SAME!
Nobody is coming to save you. There are no magical pills. There is no TV
program, no celebrity influence (spiritual or otherwise), no diet plan, no guru, no Alcoholic’s Anonymous group meeting, no financial investment, no job or career, no politician or political culture, no partner, no family member, no vacation or getaway, no religion or religious belief system (dogma) and certainly no amount of money that is going to SAVE YOU! Period. So why keep doing the same?
You are the YOU that YOU are stuck with until YOU decide that YOU are tired of the bullshit, the energy and the lack of results. That’s the magic! In fact, no matter your circumstance, you cannot BLAME others, playing victim for your own bullshit and results. You are NOT a VICTIM.
Feeling pathetic about yourself in your own skin, complaining about the worst experiences in your life no matter if its the experience of death, loss, ill health, obesity or feeling low and stressed is really a BILLBOARD DISPLAY showing your unwillingness to change, your lack of true desire to change and your acceptance of being stuck in the bullshit. Its not funny. Its not something you joke about or post on social media funny memes about! Obesity is not okay. Depression is not okay. Alcoholism is not okay.
Its NOT WHO YOU WERE MEANT TO BE!
Being financially broken, fat, unhealthy, sad, angry, jealous, rejected, unwanted, undesirable, desperate, despondent, hateful, depressed and addicted are not your truth. If you are bringing that bullshit into a New Year’s Resolution, then you will fail.
Its time for change. Its time for a new mindset. Its time for new energy. Its time for new influences. You cannot be anything new if you operate under the old. Death must come to the old in order for life to come to the new.
Here is to all of the real changes coming in 2020.
Happy New Year!
Albert and Nikki
The Viking and The Apache
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