I am a 48-year old woman. Mother of five, graduate level education, business owner, veteran and provider. I have both traveled and lived abroad, taking in every experience, taste, sight and sound that life has to offer.
From an outsider’s perspective, I am a successful woman.
The truth is, I am in need of emotional healing. I am not as successful as some may believe me to be. I am a work in progress.
When it comes to wellness, the authentic emotional health of an individual is just as important as fitness, nutrition and rest. Unfortunately, humans work very hard to suppress, mask and deflect their emotions.
Alcoholism, drug addiction, whether it’s prescription or illegal, addiction to social media, television and Internet, addictions to sugar, eating, self abuse, shopping and collecting ‘stuff’, addictions to traditions and old agreements, addiction to anxiety and self loathing or drama, these are just some of the things that help people deflect their need to heal emotionally.
I never realized a simple experience could help heal the soul!!!!
Maybe not completely, but when it comes to healing, every little bit counts, right?
A Disney World experience is capitalism at its finest. Thousands of families, most with strollers, backpacks and diaper bags. Long lines and crowded places are both existences I avoid at all cost and yet from the moment I boarded the Disney bus, I felt a sense of freedom and absolute release. I felt peaceful.
The music, the positivity, the enchantment and the magic were the perfect medicine for my inner child.
You see, my inner child has been silenced for years. Playfulness was not tolerated, as it was not adult. Speaking your feelings was frowned upon because children were seen, not heard. Being strong or tough was not in alignment with gender roles. Standing up for victims of sexual abuse was considered rehashing the past. Being independent in thought was being disrespectful. Not following the crowd was seen as defiance.
As I walked through the entry gates of this magical place, all childhood trauma seemed to dissipate. I just let go, skipping my way through the streets full of people and magic. In spite of the crowds, I felt total release.
Our vacation was playful, spontaneous, full of joy and laughter and most of all,
As we grow older, we tend to accept our emotional pain as status quo. We allow past trauma and old agreements to consume our existence, even subconsciously. We simply close the door to things that have happened to us, in false belief that building a barrier between past and present somehow prevents emotional pain from getting through.
Quite the contrary!
Emotions are more like a hurricane, building and building in a circular whirl of speed. Sometimes, the emotional hurricane dies out over time, but sometimes, it can hit with such fury that it damages everything around it. Unfortunately, most people do not understand this connection to their emotional baggage.
The magic in the air was undetectable, but existed nonetheless. I was consumed by a sense of happiness, laughter and energy.
My inner child was playing, and playing hard she was. The stresses of life and adulthood seemed to dissolve and for three glorious days, I grew young again.
I am not saying that a trip to Disney World will solve all of your problems, albeit emotional or situational. However, I will say for me, Disney World was the impetus for allowing myself to take a backseat to my inner child. Now that I am back to my older current self, I have found a new perspective on certain things and have released other things no longer serving me.
Find that place and be free.